Nico, Chillin' April

2008 Nico Oct 1st, 2006

Time....

It was funny the other day when I looked at Nico and realized he is not a baby anymore, and even though I love this stage because we can play, communicate and do fun things....it was sad to see that he is no longer my little baby boy. Actually, it's hard to remember those long nights or feeding him bottles and truly that was only 15 months ago but to me it seems like a lifetime ago. When I look back to photos of Nico when he was born, I think that's what he looked like? And not that I have forgotten, I haven't, but it is so hard to remember him that way. Actually even though he is only be talking and walking for less than 7 months, I can't remember him anyway else....am I crazy???

He has been such a good child and if I wanted to have another (which I don't and can't) I know that they couldn't possibly be as mild mannered, but wild at times as Nico is. Sometimes I start cleaning something or picking up another car and realize it's been twenty minutes and think, did he go upstairs yet again?? And then I look in his playroom and just watch this amazing little person entertaining and talking to himself and I think we created him? Now we all know the logistics of how he was made and that he is a blessing from God, but to think 2 short years ago I was pregnant with this amazing child and we, and I mean we, had no idea what we possibly doing, but we did know one thing and still do no matter how much we mess up or feel guilty about not spending enough time with Nico, with all of our being we love this little boy more than life itself.

To me, spending time to reflect like this helps me slow down and realize life is so short and we have to step back and remember that before we know it Nico will be off to kindergarten, prom and then leaving for college to start a life of his own and I can only hope that values and happiness that we have instilled in this perfect little child will be enough to continue with his children one day.....Even though he is only 19 months, I can't even fathom being a Grandma but I am sure as the last 19 months have flown by so will the years of my life to have my 19 month old grandchild on my lap and me thinking wasn't this just Nico yesterday???

Until next time.....