I AM WELL SORT OF BACK.............

I know it's so hard to believe but finally, I am semi and I do mean semi back to normal....although it's been a tough week and half, I am starting to at least be able to sit at the computer desk for a short amount of time!!! So as most everyone knows surgery went well, and although I only expected to be in the hospital for 2 days, I actually ended up there for 4 and not because there was complications, I think they wanted to get my pain under control. Which was nice that they had me on a pain pump but was awful because if I feel asleep and didn't push the button every 10 mins or so I paid for it for hours.....but all in all the nurses were wonderful and everyone tried to help as much as they could. I thank those who came to visit me, and for those who couldn't I knew you were there in spirit which means the world to me. You know you learn who your true friends are in situations like this, and I appreciate and love each one of you.

But back to my recovery, it's been a slow process and the hardest part is not being able to hold Nico...bc what two year old wants to just sit there?? Not being able to play with Nico, not being able to pick him up when he whines for me, not putting him to bed or all the little simple things we take advantage of everyday. But Bryan has been awesome and has been taking very good care of us! So hopefully by the 17th when I follow up with the surgeon, things will become easier and easier and this stupid pain medicine that makes me loopy will be a thing of the past!!! Let's just all pray that my migraines are gone and my numbness and all this "stuff" will be finally a thing of the past!!!!

Until next time...........

SIGNING OFF....

So this is my last post for probably a couple of weeks, as most of you know I am going for my second brain surgery in a year on Friday. Which is kind of ironic because up until Nico was born via c-section in October 2006, I had not been in a hospital since I was probably 5 years old ....umm, oh yeah there was the military hospital incident that I try to forget....and then it seems that I turned 30 and went down the tubes. It's been a frustrating year, but I guess in some ways I should say it's been a blessing because I am still here and God had choosen a different path for me that has made everyone around me only stronger and taught me that in rough times, who is really important to me. So even though I am being strong for my son, who thankfully is only 2 years old and will never remember any of this but also for Bryan who for some reason puts up with my crap for last 13 years and continues to even though these hard times. And for my family and friends who have been there through the good and the bad, and keep being here for me I thank you more than words can ever say.

So, not that Nico won't keep having adventures these next couple of weeks and funny stories but know I'll be back bugging all of you before you know it and you'll have to hear whether you want to or not, another Nico adventure.....the true story of Nico teaching us what life is all about!!

Thank all of you in advance for your thoughts and prayers and for now I am signing off.....

Love and peace,

So this is my second "Not Me!" Monday and probably my last for quite awhile, but with the week I have had and the week I am going to have, I just have to for some laughs because we all know I could use some laughs right now.

I never could of have almost dropped Nico when I thought I broke my back picking him up and then crawled to the phone for help and he thought now it was a game Mommy and him were playing and then let him run around in the buff until Gma came to help.

I most certainly didn't give Nico fruit snacks at 4 am because he was up crying and begging for fruit snacks and then gave him another pack at breakfast because I was certainly not to tired to argue.

No way did I turn on cartoons and let him run around at 4 am and catch him 2 inches from the tv screen and thought I don't have the energy to fight with him today.

I surely didn't think I'll do last week laundry on Sunday and then only one load because I had no "under" stuff to wear and leave another load in the washer to be washed again tonight.

I never could of not made dinner again because there is something in the fridge and darnnet I am not the cook and the maid.

And I certainly would of never walked out of the house with Nico in his diaper only because he was fighting me to put clothes on and wasn't feeling good. NO not me!

Now I feel better, now if only this works for times that I have coming up....I'll just have to start writing them down and when I can get to a computer in a couple of weeks I'll have to make up for those weeks missed! Happy "Not Me" Monday!!!

Until next time......

Chuck E Cheese

I have to say I was a little disappointed in Chuck E Cheese last night....let me start from the beginning. I have been wanting to go to Chuck E Cheese for a while, but wasn't sure if Nico was old enough and if it would be crowded, but finally I gave in and we went last night for Nico's birthday. Not that Pump It Up wasn't enough..what can I say, I spoil my child I know. But not only was it pretty crowded, Nico was still to little to do much but the kiddie rides and we ended up with 25 or tokens left on our card and we started with 40. Although we all know the terrible 2's are here, he just wouldn't cooperate or understand that he had to eat before he could play, he couldn't just push people out of the way because he wanted to see or do and lets not forget the meltdown because Mommy made him sit and finish eating....finally we off and playing, Nico finished eating what little Nico usually eats and then it was trying to find what was fun to play, and I had been there a few times with Kait and Kourt, but it seems like they changed a lot of the games and the small area for little kids, was not that fun. Then he had to go up the ladder to the tubes, car and slide but even though he is pretty tall, he wasn't tall enough so off was Mommy to chase after him and I don't know if I'll ever let him up there again, it was pretty nasty with candy wrappers, something spilled and dried on...don't want to know what that was along with the fact that the older kids were not accommodating at all, and I understand that they didn't want to wait on a 2 year old plus his crazy Mommy, but have a little patience as I am sure I would have it were them. After finally getting him down and it was time to leave he did get a few stickers and a tiny Frisbee, but I have to say this is one place I probably won't go back to again, the food was expensive and just OK and the games are not really accommodating for a 2 year old. At least until I forget, and he is begging me to go back......what can I say, I am sure in 5 or so years I'll forget all about it!!!

Until Nico's next adventure........

The poll results are.........

I know everyone was patiently waiting for what exactly happened the first night of Nico sleeping in his big bed!! The majority was right, Nico cried for about 15 minutes and then finally fell asleep and slept through the night, only to have me find him in the closet when the sun shined in his room. He has been sleeping at night in his bed, no crying ever since but when that sun shines he's up and ready to go!! Nap time is another story, he won't stay in bed and thinks he can pull out all his clothes and shoes, and anything else he can his little curious hands on! So until we do something to make the room dark or we can rationalize with him, he'll be sleeping in his Pack-n-Play...but hopefully that will be a thing of the past very soon.

Thanks for all who voted!!

Until Nico's next adventure......Chuck E Cheese!!!

THE PARTY OF THE YEAR!!!

Mommy & Me

Wheeeeeeeee!!!!

Comme Chay, we can make it over this mountain!!!

I know everyone has been waiting so patiently for the adventures of Nico's party...so here it is!! Nico had so much fun with his friends and family, he jumped, slid down the slides, did the obstacle course and ran around laughing and carrying on! And if wasn't enough, he got his Lightning McQueen cake that had a car for him to take home and now he won't let out of his sight...we'll until he dropped it in his sleep and Mommy hasn't climbed under his new bed yet to find it....I know I am such a bad Mommy, and he absolutely has no other cars to play with!!!

Overall it was a great day and Nico had a blast and was soooo tired when we got home and went straight to bed for a nap. Thanks to everyone who came, he loved all his new toys and clothes!!! Now only 359 more days until the next party of the year.....NICO'S 3rd BIRTHDAY!!!!

Until Nico's next adventure.........

I found this website from my friend Jennifer's blog and I thought this would be therapeutic and fun for my readers!! So here goes my first official "Not Me Monday".....

I certainly didn't give into feeding Nico chips before dinner just because he was begging at the pantry door and I was trying to deal with Athena and make dinner. And then hand him a second helping because he flashed those beautiful blues at me....

I couldn't have possibly opened another can of spaghetti O's because that's the only thing he would eat for dinner and then give him more chips because he asked so nicely....

It's not possible that we never got out of our pj's all day Sunday and then I continued to watch the clock to wait for bath time and then put him more pj's that were last years Christmas jammies...

No way, did I leave the playroom a mess and think why should I have to clean it up?? I didn't make it that way........or allow Nico to play playdough on his art desk and walk away because I really didn't care if he got it all over the carpet.

It's not possible that I left a load a laundry in the dryer to get wrinkled and then think maybe I should re-wash those to get the wrinkles, and then just figured what the heck everyone wears wrinkled clothes these day.....plus they have to feel sorry for me bc I have a 2 year old!!

I would of never skipped dinner and then ate potato chips and pretzels for my dinner....maybe that's where he gets his chips obession...no it can't be possible!

And finally, No way did I EVER decide to not make dinner for Bryan because I wanted to watch my taped DVR stuff and might do that again tonight :)

Geez, that was fun!!! Now I definitely feel better :)

BIG BOY BEDS.....

What's going on Daddy??

No more cribs!!!

Umm, not sure about this Mommy!!!

Nico's New Big Boy Bed!!!

So it's official, Nico has turned 2 today and become a big boy, sleeping in his big boy bed!!! Gma Beth and Gpa Tim brought over his super duper big boy bed that Gpa Tim made, and it's beautiful!!! He was too cute, we sat him on it and he didn't know what to do he just kind of stood there looking at us with those beautiful blues, thinking seriously or whatever a 2 year thinks when you put him in his big bed for the first time. Then he didn't like the pillow we got him, and he especially didn't like the fact that Mommy and Daddy wanted him to stay in bed. So after taking a few pictures and putting the room back together, it was time for bed. We all gave him a kiss and told him we loved him, and then it was kicking and screaming for about what seemed like a lifetime, but was only about 15 mins....Mommy was stressed out because the pillow was over his head, then the blanket, then the cars went overboard with a bang...until that moment when finally he found his thumb and pushed the pillow away to fall asleep sideways and he has been asleep for over an hour, so let's all just pray tonight that he sleeps through the night and wakes up in the morning wanting to do it all over again! Thankfully to our good friends Kelly and Chane, they allowed us to borrow their video monitor so we can watch him and know what's going on!!! Not that I am going out to buy one, but now I kind of wish that we would of had that when Nico was little, definitely would of saved many nights of waking the poor little guy up!! It's so hard to think of Nico as a toddler, but he definitely has grown into a little independent little prince!!!

Wish us luck....until Nico's next adventure...the party of the year!!!!