Today I feel Discouraged

I am discouraged because although I have been diagnosed with Chronic Daily Headaches and Migraines (at least that's what they put on my chart) no one really wants to work with me except to throw more medicine at me.

I am discouraged because no one has told me why I am having CDH/migraines, or knows where to go next.

I am discouraged because my neurologist up at Cleveland Clinic is no longer practicing at Cleveland Clinic and no one can tell me if I am going with him or not.

I am discouraged because I have gone through hell to be approved for a experimental procedure that today I got a letter from my insurance company stating it was not approved.

I am discouraged because the neurologist from Cleveland had told me that my insurance company would deny it but he would go up against their board and get it approved, but now the office won't return my calls.

I am discouraged because I just want this to go away, and stop taking medicine to control my pain.

I am discouraged because I leave messages at his office and no one returns my calls....so basically as I told Cleveland Clinic yesterday I don't want to be left in limbo but here I am left in limbo....

I am discouraged because I don't even know where to go next and everyone just keeps telling me they will return my calls when they don't.....

I am discouraged because I feel like I should just give up and realize this is going to be the rest of my life...

So basically I am just discouraged........

Now that I got my feelings out, I am encouraged to know that I have had some doctors that have been very good to me and are trying to help me. And I know that things could of ended up much worse considering my situation and I want to feel encouraged but today I just want to feel...

Discouraged